I will no longer accept any more Sour Apples in my life. This is my Hard Limit for the rest of my life. Sour Apples are the kind of people that loves to stay in drama and cause drama. Sour Apples are the kind of people that stay in a very negative state of mind, no matter what you do to cheer them up. They just stay in negativity. Sour Apples are the kind of people that go out in the society or community and just bring the energy down, because they are not happy. Sour Apples stay in victim mode, because they can't find their own way out of a hard trigger, hard pain, deep depression due to past trauma or abuse and they refuse to seek the proper professional help.
I am sorry to sound cold or heartless here, but I have already suffered through my own share of pain, abuse, depression, trauma, and hard triggers. For years I have lived in constant pain, my own living hell with no one in my corner to help me through. I had to find the will deep down in myself, strap on my combat boots and fight every day for a better life. So, I do understand where these Sour Apples are coming from. Truly I do. But for all those Sour Apples that are not willing to fight every day for your version of a better tomorrow, for a better life, or even try one small step to think something positive, then I have no more room in my life for you.
I have already sacrifice too much of my time and energy spending time with people that turn out to be real Sour Apples. Not one of them ever bother to say thank you. Not one of them ever consider the time, energy, and effort I put into their lives. Not one ever turned around and bothered to asked" How I am doing today?" or "How they can improve my life or feelings?"
Like being positive for others is easy. It is totally not. I wake up every day making sure my own slip is not showing when I go out in the community. I wake up every day with a choice that I will live my life with fun, positivity, and joy. Do you know how much effort it takes to not succumb to depression? Do you know how much effort it takes to not put unnecessary, unwanted, and unfair blame toward others when I feel my own private pain? Do you ever consider how much I struggle to simply get out of bed in the morning? Do you ever consider how much negativity rolls around in my own head each day? But I take time out from myself and try to bring you joy. What sense does that make? I try to give you a seed of positivity. I try to bring sunshine into your dark tunnel. Do you understand how much effort I have to put in myself to think of you or others?
But the difference between me and the other Sour Apples, I make a choice to be happy. I make a choice to think positive. I make a choice to focus on having fun. I make a choice to welcome joy. I make a choice to experience something new. I make a choice to fight every day for a better tomorrow. So, I am making my final choice with all the Sour Apples that is roaming around in this community, I will no longer welcome you in my life. I will never again give you an opportunity to tear me down, because you can't find the will to fight for your own happiness.
I already have protectors in place. Nothing against you, but I am too sensitive, too compassionate, too kind, too new in the community for my own good, to leave myself and my heart unguarded. These protectors are here to protect me from the Sour Apples that are trolling the community. From recent experience, my protectors are very good at spotting the Sour Apples out. But I didn't listen, and I got hurt. Now, I am more willing to listen to them now. So be warned all you Sour Apples, if you have an opportunity to be in my presence you will be vetted. I will no longer take the chance to get hurt or be torn down by you.
I am truly sorry if I sound cold or heartless, but I have been hurt too many times already. I have no more time for that kind of drama or B.S. My focus is learning, self-improving, and welcoming fun back in my life. That is all I have time and energy for.
