Inspired by Mary J. Blige song
I heard this song by a different artist today and it hit my soul hard. This was singing the truth that was locked away in my heart because of the abuse, the betrayal, and the pain I have suffered. I gave a man all of me for 16 years, thinking it was love. I gave him my all, that I lost sight of me. Granted, in the beginning, it was so beautiful that I never imagined that the years after I would roam this earth heartbroken and with many walls up around me. For years after, I had a hard time with trusting anyone. I even took up a new persona, to hide my pain. Now I am in TX trying to find my footing again.
To be honest, I didn’t know I was secretly yearning for Real Love. Someone that would find my key to my cage and set me completely free. I didn’t know I was secretly looking for that. Yes, I had a very good friend from WV that came down to GA and rescued me. Who allowed me the allotted time to nurse my injured wings and heart. Now I have a human pet in TX, that I can test and explore things with. But out of the blue a man found me. A Master in fact, that commanded my attention from the very start. Took my breath away. And gently demanded all my truth and pain out of me. And he is currently showing me the possibilities of what Real Love should truly feel like. Real Love is inspiring. Real Love is renewal. Real Love is a release of all the ugly of the past. Real Love demands to be true to oneself. Real Love requires no modesty in the person you want to be and the kind of person I truly deserve in my life.
Real Love isn’t abusive. It isn’t lies. It isn’t a term that requires one or the other in the relationship to feel trapped in themselves or in their own world. Real Love is having the respect in yourself to truly love yourself completely. Once you love yourself completely, the right person will come along and cherish that gift. Until that right person appears in my life, I will work on finding Real Love within myself, so I have plenty to give to that special one that is truly meant for me.
For those that have been hurt and think this is the end for your life or world, remember this. Real Love is real, but you first have to find it within yourself, before the Real Love you truly deserve finds you. Once you have true love for yourself, the right person will come along and cherish you like a rare jewel, because that is what you are. A rare jewel, that should be cherished for all your days. Teach yourself what Real Love is supposed to feel like for you, and once it radiates in your very being, it will slowly manifest all around you. It will be like a bright beacon for Real Love to find you.
In the meantime, take your time and enjoy your life's journey. After all, it is your life, and no one else. Think of your life as a book you are writing. What kind of book, is it? Is it sad and full of tragedies? Is it full of drama, but have a powerful message to share with others? Is it full of pages of all the challenges you have faced and overcome with many adventures you took in your life? What kind of story would you like to leave behind for the next generation? Focus on that, and by the end of the book, when you take the time to re-read it for yourself, that's when you realize the Real Love that you deserved was within those pages the whole time. So take your time and enjoy the journey.
